June 21st Testo

Testo June 21st

It's my birthday bitch
Can you please pick up the phone 'cause I am sick of it
Everything just turned to black, I'm in the midst of it
And now I don't see a way back , I'll take these pills and shit

Fuck whoever tried to help me, I don't see none of them now
Just turned 18, still I'm waiting but I think I do know now
Whats your motive? Fuck me over? Leave me alone, I don't care
I don't want anyone knowing this pain is too much to bare
Lockdowns starting, school is over, people calling once a month
Never asking how I'm doin' so your call ain't what I want
Mind is breaking, hands are shaking, need someone to save my life
If I don't then best be warned, might fuck around and use a knife
But actually do it and slitting my wrist
Would be too way painfull and worse than it is
If I shot myself in the head I won't miss
Cause I wanna live forever but I don't want to exist

June 21st, it's my birthday
I don't really fucking care what you say
Nobody at my side here to help me
Bet they will be at my grave once I end me

June 21st, end up in a hearse
June 21st, life is just a curse
June 21st, it's only getting worse
June 21st, fuck june 21st

Wrote a note but this shit's depressing
Messages to reach out, I'm done sending
Happiness that bleeds out im done lending
I just want all of this sadness ending
Tears with fits of rage is what I'm blending

Feelin' like a fell a hunderd miles and hit the bottom
Name one of your problems, bitch, I guarentee I got 'em
Never helping me 'cause you guys only help each other
I just want to dissapear, no cloak like Harry Potter
Is there any solution 'cause I dont see a way
Might drive in a river to wash these issues away, I
Need some help right now, don't wanna send you all astray
Need someone to care about me before my body decays
You know what it is, I'm all done with this
Can't look for the bliss, head covered in mist
Looking for a kiss but snakes around me hiss
When I reminisce, I fall in the abyss

June 21st, it's my birthday
I don't really fucking care what you say
Nobody at my side here to help me
Bet they will be at my grave once I end me

June 21st, end up in a hearse
June 21st, life is just a curse
June 21st, it's only getting worse
June 21st, fuck june 21st