Self Testo

I self-sabotage, self-medicate, self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I'm a little late to the party
I'm a little late to the starting line
I could give a hundred different reasons why I don't believe in myself, deceiving myself I mean it
Never felt less that right now

Why can't I feel good Without feeling so bad?
Why can't I feel happy
Instead of feeling so sad
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate, self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I guess I'm a little stuck in the past
Every mistake I make, yeah it takes me back to
A mess like the first time I felt love from a boy who always told me I would never be enough yeah
'Cause I was always different but I hid it well
There was something missing but you couldn't tell
I was in the middle of a breakdown, wait now
Everybody slow down, I don't wanna talk about this right now

Why can't I feel good (I just wanna feel)
Without feeling so bad? (I don't wanna feel yeah)
Why can't I feel happy (I just wanna feel)
Instead of feeling so sad (I don't wanna feel yeah)
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate, self-camouflage, self-isolate I just really wish that the voices in my head would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I just wanna feel
'Cause I'm the one who's always gonna follow you
I just wanna feel
Just let me pretend I'm fine

Why can't I feel good
Without feeling so bad?
Why can't I be happy
Instead of feeling so sad
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate, self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate, self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to