I Hate That I Love You Testo

I remember what you said, that shit tore me to pieces
That I was something that you wanted but not really needed
I used pray for someone like you, could of sworn I was dreaming
Then I woke up and realized you were one of my demons
Now I'm contemplating life and wondering what's ahead
If it's without you, I might choose to not live it instead
You gave me life and without you I fucking feel like I'm dead
And as I'm writing this song, I'm currently trapped in my head
And now it's dead weight, ya it hurts
I don't understand why we just couldn't work (Why?!) Wish that we could speak but I can't find words
You know that I'm hurt and you don't care and that just makes it worse
So when I see you smile, I fill my cup and write another verse
Battling myself and evil thoughts
Tried to spend my life with you, I didn't know what it would cost
Should of never came to Cali, never opened up my heart
Wish I never found love, 'cause I never would of lost
This this every day, ask myself why didn't she stay
Looking up to heaven asking God to take away this pain
I know that I love you and I know that you don't feel the same
And that's what's killing me inside and causing me to go insane
Fuck
Said we're too different, told me we would never work
Always put me second, I would sprint but couldn't finish first
Got too comfortable and let my guard down when you realized I did you took my feelings and you threw 'em in the fucking dirt
Matching tattoos, I can't believe that you convinced me
Now you're gone and it's the only thing that keeps you here with me
Ya, I hate but I love you
You left but still see me
If you needed it right now I'd still give you my kidney
I'm lost, can't see another woman I'm blind
And if I do, Gods gonna have to pry open my eyes
You gon' laugh and say I'm weak until you realize and find
That sharing love is the meaning and whole purpose of life
And when you do and hear this song
You will cry and sing along
And realize that you don't wanna die old and alone
And I'll be here still writing on my phone, isolated in my home
Drunk half-way gone screaming, I still love you!
And wouldn't put no one above you
Even though you fucking lied something in me still trusts you
I would die for you, kill for you, end my whole career
They could cut off both my arms and I'd still find a way to hug you
I don't mean to make this music but it's something that I must do
Fuck you!
I motherfucking hate that I love you
I only run to you 'cause I can't run from you
You took my child away, he was my fucking son too

I hate that I love you
I hate that I love you