These Are The Thoughts Testo

These are the thoughts that go through my head in my backyard on a Sunday afternoon when I have the house to myself and I am not expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend is he the one that I will marry? and why is it so hard to be objective about myself why do I feel cellularly alone am I supposed to live in this crazy city can blindly continued fear induce regurgitated life denying tradition be overcome where does the money go that I send to those in need if we have so much why do some people have nothing still I do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning why do you say you are spiritual yet you treat people like shit how can you say you're close to God and yet you talk behind my back as though I'm not a part of you why do you say you're fine when it's obvious you are not, why's it so hard to tell you what I want why can't you just read my mind why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen why do I care whether you like me or not why's it so hard for me to be angry why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck and not the other way around will I ever move back to Canada again? I'd be with a lover with whom I am a student and a master why am I encouraged to shut my mouth when it gets too close to home, why cannot i live in the mo - ment